Wednesday, November 28, 2007

One year ago today...

Exactly one year and one day ago I was convinced I wasn't pregnant. I came home after a long day of work to an empty house since Juan was on call, made some dinner, drank a beer, and started meticulously planning out my next cycle. It was going to be our 21st--twenty one months since we had started trying to get pregnant. I was considering taking a break for a cycle or two until our insurance processed the paperwork for my referral to a local RE but hadn't made up my mind one way or another yet.

In any case, I ate, I watched some TV and I went to bed. It was an altogether unremarkable night, but it was also one I'll remember for the rest of my life.

Exactly one year ago today I woke up, brushed my teeth, turned on the shower, and (just for the heck of it) took a pregnancy test. I expected it would be negative--hell, I was testing when Juan wasn't even home, that's how much I was expecting a negative result. wasn't negative. It was positive. Positive.

I remember thinking that I should be crying. You're supposed to cry when you finally get the one thing you've wanted more than anything else for almost two years, right? I couldn't cry, though. All I could do was stare at that test. Positive.

Sitting here now, staring down at Luke, part of me still can't believe that it really happened or that I'm really, finally, a mother. It's been an amazing journey, and I feel like the luckiest person alive to have taken it.

I love you, little boy. You were unquestionably worth the wait.


Megan said...

He is so awesome! Look at that grin!

We continue to be so happy for all of you...and hope to have Texas friends at our table sometime soon!

Mom of 2 Boys said...

This made me cry. Real, huge, ugly tears. I'm SO incredibly happy for you. And I think Luke is just the adorable little boy in the world (seriously -- he ranks right up there with my own ;0)

Mom of 2 Boys said...

..umm...and that should say:

"I think Luke is just the most adorable little boy..." pardon me - and the wine ;-)